katieSawruss

got ready to go out . fiz rang me saying she is going out with loren
even though we semi arranged to go out . but no.
so i'm in on NYE crying my eyes out because i don't want 2010 to come
but i want want 2009 to come. i just want someone to steal my emotions
to stop me being scared and permently shit always i do nothing but cry either because i'm in pain
emotionally or physically feeling shit isn't good .
2010 is going to be rubbish my love life is a fail and i'm having an op which i am now scared of that it's coming closer and after having to see someone about it yesterday .
just don't want to be here anymore ;/